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Video Interview-Falling For Truth

Shawn Nevins of the TAT Foundation and I did an interview recently where we discuss the themes and some of the stories surrounding my book Falling For Truth.

It can be seen as a video here

And as a podcast on here

With the book now out for a month, I thought it would be a good idea to lay out a small overview of what is in the book chapters so those visiting this site can better see the many areas it contains.

Chapter 1 recounts the death event that led to seeing reality and myself not just as a “kind of dream” but as a dream.

Chapter 2 looks at modern spirituality and why it has little merit for the seeker of truth.

Chapter 3 is about commitment, small and large. I share an example from a Native Indian medicine man and how the commitments we make shape our entire life.

Chapter 4 presents what Richard Rose called Jacob’s Ladder. I take his framework and show how it fits into alchemy, Adyashanti, Ancient Egypt. This reveals 3 stages of spiritual work, what those three stages are- and why very very few are even in the second stage (even though most of them think they are in the third or even completed).

Chapter 5 is about the mind, thoughts, its parasitic nature, and a long discussion of the process of recapitulation (life review) that took me almost 5 years to complete.

Chapter 6 is about the examination of the mind, some suggestions how to do that, and what I found by looking at my mind with something past the mind.

Chapter 7 digs into the dreamstate, the world we inhabit but believe to be “real.” Here via movies, discussion of holograms, time loops, and parallel worlds the dreamstate might be seen a bit more clearly.

Chapter 8 is about manifestation- which Rose labeled between ness, and why the spiritual community is being sold a manifestation product that accomplishes very little.

Chapter 9 is a wrap up of the book and where things are heading after writing it.

The Appendix has around 100 pages of information on the Nag Hammadi Gnostic documents, the process of recapitulation, dreaming exercises that I used, a discussion of Castaneda’s Tonal and Nagual, what I see a shaman really is, and a presentation of the plates of the alchemic Mutus Liber which basically lays out the whole process of awakening if you can read the symbolic language.

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So you want to wake up?

And go somewhere to do it.

But there is nowhere to go.

No place to walk to.

No path will get you there.

Enlightenment is where you are right now.

It is here, not there.

No paths, no walking, no goals, no guides.


When you truly know that answer,

You will be awake.

HM 2006

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“Die while you are alive,
and be absolutely dead.
Then do whatever you want.
It’s all good.”

Q I had a dream last night and death was following me.

A Death is always following you. The process of awakening is the process of death. The death of everything you believed to be you. One will not realize without the force of death. It is why we make death our best friend. Talk about hanging out with the wrong crowd huh? Every spiritual aspirant has a giant fear of death, yet has great courage to not run from it but instead, seek it out.

Read more “Death”
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This process appears now in my new book Falling For Truth. However, many people have come to this article on my site for many years to help with their practice, so I have decided to keep this available for site readers.

“Only through the recapitulation of one’s entire life
can the apprentice truly understand his total being.”
-Theun Mares-

Read more “Recapitulation”
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Stopping Internal Dialogue

“Stopping the internal dialogue is singularly the most important act
an apprentice must accomplish.”
Carlos Castaneda

Internal dialogue is a form of possession. Conversations and dialogue with people or things not present. Something not you is controlling you, that is the definition of possession. These forces, or rather thoughts of these forces become possessive and control you and their arrival causes you to lock into them and act with them. They take up your valuable energy that could be used to do anything else. But there is more to internal dialogue than just stealing energy in mental conversation. Looked at closely you will see that it is this dialogue that in fact makes your external reality.

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Alone In Enlightenment

“I’m nobody.
Who are you?”
Are you nobody too?
-Emily Dickinson

Realization is a very misunderstood…I was going to write achievement, but it’s not an achievement, just a happening. It is like making a long, steep, tough climb up a mountain, only to get to the top and go, “mmmm, nice view.” Then you walk back down. That’s it, nothing special, but it revolutionizes everything. Enlightenment is the shocking realization that there is only one. Not one thing, or all is connected, just one. It sounds like a simple re-ordering of words, but the meaning of that word order is profound.

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I will be putting out more movie analysis that I have stored in my file of notes. I thought the first would be a movie almost 15 years old, Inception.

People are still trying to determine what in that movie was “reality” and when the main character (Leo DiCaprio- Cobb) was dreaming. The trick is to see that the entire movie was a dream. Even places where one feels there is a reality, normal world- just like our world, he too is dreaming.

Read more “Inception”
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Falling For Truth and answering questions

I have renamed my new upcoming book “Falling For Truth” being published later in the year by the great folks at the TAT Foundation. When things are ready I will provide links to the table of contents and some sample content.

I would now prefer to answer a few questions on here until the book is out, rather than write articles on what I think readers might find interesting, I would like to answer what is important for you. So pass on some questions and I will see what sort of answers arise for you.

Spring equinox is just a month away. I think everyone in the Northern Hemisphere is looking forward to it.



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Who Are the Real Gurus?

Answer- Those who love animals.

I took some time now that my new book is completed, to have a look around the internet and see what is being passed of as gurus today. While not that much has changed, there are some new names on the landscape. All wanting to run a profitable business. The guru game can make one good money.

And the standard safe elements are there. Meditation, mindfulness, watching your thoughts, having an open heart.

But then I got a sense of who I call real gurus.


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